#ignore this im just venting

[iguessitsjustme]

I am straight up not having a good time

[becquerelnoir]

Being someone who loves elves and seeing ppl try to actually do interesting things with elves

I hate when youtubers or ppl i like say they hate elves b/c they're just 'boring human 2.0' or 'they need to be retired from fantasy' because like??

Why? Why not try to just, re-invent them? Maybe YOU'RE the boring one?

Same with like

"WHY ARE YOU PLAYING A HUMAN THIS IS A FANTASY WORLD????"

like yeah and maybe someoen wants to be a human who can do extraordinary things? Humasn't aren't inherantly boring just because they're the default

I like Tieflings, and Bards, and Tiefling boards but ppl play those A LOT

it doesn't make it boring? just common?

if you think something is boring? do something to make it not boring. if your reaction to what other ppls shit is to say its boring then shut the fuck up?

[i-am-the-quintessential-queer]

I’m ready for my birthday to be over this year..

Everything I want to do is not able to happen really, and it feels kind of pointless

Even the thing I am doing isn’t fully what I want, like yeah I’m happy to do something with my friends, but it just feels like a drag at this point

One of my friends already dropped out because he picked up more hours at work just cause, and it’s like, I get it you gotta make sure you’re keeping in good with work, but the fact he decided to pick up more hours on my birthday thing bums me out

And then my other friends and I are going to bars and they asked about fits and they’re all talking dressing super casually like they aren’t really planning to do much at these outings. Like I wanna dance and have fun but it feels like they’re doing it kind of obligatory at this point

All of this on top of I still can’t celebrate my birthday with one of my best friends and I miss her like crazy. Like she’s like my sister and I haven’t been able to see her in 2 years. I want nothing more than to celebrate with her and I can’t

Idk, I know I should feel grateful that I have friends and family to celebrate with, but I’m just bummed this year. It all kinda feels pointless

Just another year I’m behind, just another year of depression, I’m just.. over it

[sapphiredraco]

No cause the fact that he IMMEDIATELY moved on, without shame. PROVING my suspicions.. literally chipped another part of me off.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRsJj676/

[nucrests]

I swear some hair creators are afraid to add the proper graying swatches to some hairstyles. If you're using the EA swatches and meshes, it shouldn't be hard to add the EA graying swatches right?? Or am I wrong for saying that???

[aulerean]

[sibmakesart]

luckily there was a half bottle of cooking wine left in the fridge

[natsmagi]

honestly the more i hear about engstars and its TLs the more i absolutely dread the inevitable release of poltergeist and what may ensue from it, bc if if the translators themselves are already invalidating arashis identity then i Really Truly do not want to see how theyll translate natsume and tsumugis microaggressions/transphobia towards her. esp since ive noticed a rise in people being comfortably transphobic towards her, and i REALLY do not wish to see natsume and tsumugi being stupid fucking morons be used as evidence to discredit her

and i think this is all the more reason why its VERY IMPORTANT for engstars to DIRECTLY ACKNOWLEDGE arashi and her gender. bc sometimes characters are STUPID and RUDE and APATHETIC. enstars is a story with NUANCED and FLAWED CHARACTERS, and when a character is being a fucking asshole youre meant to PROVE THEM WRONG. but they dont even acknowledge arashi as a girl themselves. so, if you do use engstars, please keep pressuring them bc omfg this is so bad and i can only see it getting worse

[buckys-arm-and-rios-dagger]

I had a rough day and needed to word vomit this out to cope, which is why it doesn't have my usual formatting. GN!Reader, warning for some brief mentions of crying, but other than that it's just Bucky taking care of his partner 💙

Bucky holding you after a bad day at work, keeping you close to his chest and gently wiping your tears with his thumb as you recount the events of the day, listening intently to you vent. He presses little kisses to your forehead as you cry it out, and gets you water once you've calmed down. He refuses to leave your side until you've downed the entire glass because "you cried a lot, Doll. I just don't want you to get dehydrated."

Bucky carries you into the bathroom once you're done, cradling you against his body as he runs you a bath. He was just going to let you lay back and relax while he cooked your favorite meal and turned down your bed so it was nice and ready for you to fall into when you got out, but how could he say no to those pleading eyes you gave him when you asked him to join you? He opts to put in an order at your favorite takeout place and strips down before settling in behind you. You're in his arms as soon as his body hits the water, flesh and metal enveloping you in a cocoon of love and warmth. He takes his time washing your hair, peppering your back and shoulders with with kisses.

Bucky helps you out of the tub after he excuses himself so that he can throw on some clothes and grab you something warm to wear: your favorite pair of jogging shorts, the Henley that keeps disappearing from his top drawer, and a hoodie that he's been wearing a lot lately, knowing that you love how it smells like him. He turns down the bed as you get dressed, and somehow timed the food delivery out perfectly, so he gets you settled in bed before running to meet the delivery driver.

You and Bucky eat in bed, and once you two are done he lays in your lap and lets you play with his hair, knowing that it helps you calm down.

Bucky watches you start to sway, the way you fight to keep your eyes open, and asks if you're ready for bed. You beg him for some skin-on-skin, though you really don't need to. He would give you the universe if you asked him to. He helps you out of his your shirt before stripping off his own and hugging you to his chest. You nuzzle into him, stroking your fingers up and down his happy trail as you happily fall asleep on his chest, your bad day long forgotten as you doze off in his arms.

---------------------------------------------------

Had an absolute nightmare of a day at work and when I told my family about it my mom made it all about her like she ALWAYS does and my dad was at least sympathetic but just gave me like a sympathetic shoulder pat and all I want is a hug but no one in my family really does that so now all I want is a Bucky to hold me and tell me it's all gonna be okay and take care of me so... This happened

[sotwk]

We all tell ourselves and each other that "notes don't matter, create for yourself".

But it's crazy how noticing/remembering the lack of notes on your content can quickly tank your desire to continue creating.

It happens to most of us, I think. Fortunately, some of us bounce back. Unfortunately, some of us don't.

[tadagyoten]

billy & max - forwards beckon rebound by adrianne lenker

killed myself 10 times in my head making this

my computer broke while editing so no more edits forever cause im a broke uni student . Sick and Twisted .

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the artblock be hitteth Harder than normal, for tis not normal artblock. woe. Wally be upon ye

[etherealspacejelly]

i wish i had a friend like me. maybe that sounds stupid and selfish and egotistical but. idk. im very good at comforting people and helping people with stuff. and i wish i had someone like that.

im good at comforting myself too but sometimes i wish it was someone else doing it for me

i wish i was brave enough to ask

[employee052]

turns out a brief moment of feeling ok doesnt mean im done grieving

anywho, heres a vent doodle with a pose i saw online, might not reblog the road trip thread posts for a bit (i feel bad for not being able to participate in my own trend but as long as people enjoyed it then i dont mind all too much)

i dont wanna call it a break bc i cant help but be on tumblr, but things might go quiet in terms of art or me talking.

hope yall are doin well today/tonight/timezone n ill see yall when i see you :3

[kerizaret]

In case you haven't noticed May has sucked for me so far, anyway *projects onto blorbo*

[slavhew]

always covered in your tears and their blood.